dream to believe

Always

2012-01-25T21:46:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of forever being ignored. I'm tired of having to keep my feelings in just because I don't want to hurt anybody else's. I'm tired of trying to keep the hype going, only to get ignored and treated as if I don't exist. I'm tired of feeling like crap.

Sometimes, I wish there'd be someone for me to run to, to hug, to confide in, to cry on. Physically. I'm always the one doing it for others, but when will others do it for me?

But even if I say all these, I keep running back because I can't bear to lose any friends. Weak much.

힘들어

2012-01-12T22:09:00.003+08:00

School's strangling me and I'm physically and mentally drained. It's only been two weeks and I'm already like this. What about the rest of the year? Hmm..

I started feeling down yesterday, when I realised something. Well, in our classes, we're split into two for most of them - the stronger/average ones and the weaker ones. I'm always, always put in the weaker group. I know that it's only so that we can get more attention, but I can't help but think about it. It's such a let down when you begin to think about things like, "I'm not as good as the rest", "I'm too weak for that class", etc.

From then on, I started feeling down and all, so I was basically upset the whole day until I went for CCA, when I cheered up suddenly. I am so temperamental that I amuse myself sometimes. But when I got home, I started doing homework and what-not, and talked to Maddie about it. <3

The thing that brought me back up again was the B3 (60%~70%) I got for the A Maths test we had yesterday. I think I can do it, and I think I'm going to be fine if I keep going. I just hope thoughts like those won't appear again (or not so frequently). 나즈라 화이팅~!

2012년1월1일

2012-01-01T22:31:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR! ^_^

2012 started great! However, 2011 ended on a very, very bad note. I was so furious for the last few hours of 2011 and everyone on my t-list was, too. Why? MBC.

So much for wanting to ending the year with a bang with MBC. I can't believe that they're so stupid to go live just a few seconds after rehearsal without informing the boys. And then they blame it on the mics and said they weren't working. Nice try, MBC. The boys were tweeting right after their performance and it's very disheartening to see them apologising for something that's not even their fault. MBC, 유키스와 키스미에게 사과해주세요!!

I woke up at 1pm today, teehee. Well, that's because I slept at 4am. Kevin was up tweeting "Happy New Year!" in different languages. Up till now, I still wonder why he wasn't sleeping. Hmm.. Oh, I also found out where Dongho lives. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ And then, there's 9GAG...

2011

2011-12-31T20:29:00.001+08:00

I thought it'd be good for me to write up a post to sum up how this year has been for me, but as I'm typing this, I have NO idea what I'm gonna write so just... yeah. I'm just going to throw in a few random questions from the top of my head.

1. Memorable events in 2011?
- Alexander & Kibum's departure from U-KISS.
- U-KISS in June in Malaysia!
- Birthday celebration with friends.
- EMKB's birth.
- Becoming Kevriel's international master.
(How are four out of five fandom-related?! No life.)

2. Things I'll never regret doing in 2011?
- Breaking off a friendship in January. (Damn good start to 2011.)
- Letting myself crush on someone. (Even though it was only... a few days. -_-)
- Volunteering at the zoo & childcare center.

3. Things I regret doing in 2011?
- That argument... more on it later.
- Not working hard enough.
- Being a sloth. (as usual)
- Not exercising as much as I should.

I'm terribly disappointed with my academic results, and I've talked about it in many, many posts. I know I can do it if I put everything into it, but I don't know why I can't or refusing to. I really don't.

Then there's meeting the awesome people of the moon! This year, they've brought me peace, laughter, fun, and love. Only nine months with them (longer with some) but I feel as if it's been years. You know, there's that connection you feel with people even though you've just met them? Yeah, that. Thank you, moonpies. You know I love you all! :3

Ah, that argument. You know, I really hate it when people misunderstand my intentions. I just wanted to knock some sense into her so she'd be more positive but I've failed. You know who you are. If you're reading this, I just want to let you know that I never wanted to break off our friendship. I don't want to forget anything about it, good or bad.

So, yes, all in all, 2011 was good. Like everyone else, I've had quite a time smiling, laughing, enjoying, crying and just being moodless. That's how life is, y'know? Here's to an equally good 2012! I just hope I won't be so stressed and stuff.

Special shout-outs to Yunah, Raia, Weiyin & Marg! Thank you for everything! The crazy (and perverted) times, the comfort and encouragement, the mood-making, the laughter, the fun, just everything. Love you all to bits. <3

Maddie, didn't forget you~ Thank you for the encouragement, as well. It really means a lot to me! Thanks for the nagging (meh :P) and all. You know I love you. :D

Well, gonna end 2011 with a bang by watching MBC 가요대제전. I'll worry about my other two undone chapters of Math homework later. See y'all next year! ㅋㅋㅋㅋ

OLLEH~

2011-12-29T14:58:00.002+08:00

Yes! A nice one I like! But another flaw is that there's no archive. :(
I will figure it out... one day. Or I'll just get Steffi's help, hurhur.
U-KISS photos and the header and all done by Yunah~ Thank you so much. :D
... Now I need to disappear and do my homework. Again. The horror.

[Edit: 3:58PM]

ARCHIVES ARE UP! 8D
Thanks, Steffi for the codes! :D

December

2011-12-28T00:19:00.001+08:00

I've been so busy doing God knows what that I've totally forgotten about my blog. ... Or maybe I was busy slacking. Hmm...

Anyway! December just passed by so fast. A lot of gooood things happened! Let's see... I took on my first three projects for RocketSubs! Show Show Show and My Story Ep 4 & 5. We went to Lombok from 19th-22nd and it was really, really fun! The beaches there were the best. I'll write a separate post if I'm too lazy, heh. I also became Kevriel's international master. Thank you, 언니! ^^

I want to find a new blogskin before 2012. Preferably by tonight, actually. I must complete homework. ;~;

Abrupt ending. Bye. :D

Trainers, Sealions & Manatees

2011-12-10T15:39:00.000+08:00

So my attachment with Singapore Zoo under the School Exposure Program has been wrapped up~!

I've really learnt a lot in just five short days. The sealions' behaviour, how to feed the manatees, the sealions' names, their diet, their training, etc. I'm glad to have been posted to that section. I really love the place. The trainers and keepers I've met and worked with are just so friendly and nice, accepting me so readily. :)

It's tiring to have to keep washing the vegetables for the manatees, but if you think about it, it actually keeps you going, because you're preparing their food. It's tiring to have to keep sweeping up the fallen leaves, but it's okay because you're helping to clean the place up.

Comparing with my other friends, I think I have one of the best sections ever. Good and friendly people, nice animals, not really that tiring and not that strict. Typing this up.. I really miss the place, and it's only been a day. :'(

I miss washing the vegetables for the manatees. I miss watching the sealions being trained. I miss staring at Phillip on purpose just so that he'd make noise. I miss watching Jerson teach Pedro. I miss watching Andy walk backwards with his neck bent. I miss feeding the manatees their potatoes and carrots. I miss working with them. I miss Jerson, Prakash, Md Noor, Marshall, Kaitiri and Rahim. I miss Phillip, Pedro, Stan, Andy, Yuta and Kenta. I miss everything.

Yup, I've got it bad. My problem is that I get too attached to things/people I like, and when it's time to let go, I can't do it so easily. I don't even know what to do now, but I'll definitely go back when I get the chance.

Sealion in-charge, Prakash! ^^ ♥

Group photo with Jerson and Md Noor. :)

I remember them spamming shots. XD

Rahim! :)

Met him only on Wednesday, but we got along pretty well. To me. XD

Jerson! :D

This shot would have been a nice one if it wasn't blur.

Md Noor, whyyyy?!

Md Noor! :D

He's really nice. ^^

Another photo with Jerson. ♥

Because Phillip is my favourite out of the six.

Look how cute he is. ;~; ♥

Goodbye, November! Hello, December!

2011-12-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

November was pretty good~! Nothing that bad happened, I guess. Only good things! ^-^

Ending November on a pretty bad note, though. My left ear is currently blocked and painful and I think it's got to do with my runny nose. Going to the doctor tomorrow if it doesn't get better by morning. I'm just afraid that it'll be serious. I had a problem with my left ear when I was younger, and I think the problem has returned. I might need to get a small surgery? D:

Nevertheless, looking forward to a good December. Fun time's over, time to sit down, buckle up and prepare myself for 'O' Levels next year! I believe I can do it if I put in effort. The rewards I might be getting kinda helps, to be quite honest. ㅋㅋㅋ

잘할수있어~ 화이팅! ^^

생일축하해~!

2011-11-25T17:00:00.000+08:00

Before I say anything, yes, I'm aware that my editing skills suck. :D

Happy 21st birthday, Kevin Woo! ^^

Though I haven't been there since you entered the industry, I can promise that I'll be here until you leave! Thank you for teaching me so many values in life. I'll always treasure these lessons you've unknowingly given me. Continue to shine, you'll always be the brightest star to me. Continue to smile, you'll always be the one of those making me smile with yours. Continue to spread love and passion to those around you. Don't ever stop what you're doing if it's what you love. I may not be the most loyal, the best, or your number one fan, but knowing that I'm going to be here kinda helps, right? Hehe.

Once again, happy birthday! ^^

My message makes no sense at all.

It's not like he's gonna read it anyway, teehee.

Diddly doo~

2011-11-24T16:52:00.000+08:00

I haven't blogged for quite a while, eh? I guess all's fine. :)

Started work at the childcare centre yesterday! The kids I took care of are so, so cute. There was one that stuck to me throughout the class, but I guess he's pretty naughty so that's why I was asked to take care of him. He ended up listening to me and I felt so happy. ^-^ But there was one who cried because she's not that good with strangers. :( Going back again tomorrow, and I can't wait~!

I read someone's post about their studies yesterday, and it kinda got me worried about mine, too. November's coming to an end, and soon December will come. Then, December will fly past and school will reopen. I'm so afraid of not having anything done when school reopens. I'm actually really, really afraid of next year, and just like previous times, no one will be there to guide me so I guess I have to face all these myself.

Tick Tack short MV was released today~ I'm worried in case this is the only MV Avex is going to upload so that we will buy their CDs. If that's the case, then they've succeeded, because I'm planning to buy both versions. I can already see my money flying.

Victory

2011-11-05T17:20:00.004+08:00

After a few torturous weeks of going back to school during our June holidays, sacrificing our time for it and getting all annoyed and frustrated over it, I can finally say that our hard work has all paid off.

We won the 3D Graphics and Animation Competition 2011.

It was somehow expected (excuse me if I sound conceited; blame the teachers who kept saying we would :P) but at that time, it was really unbelievable. The way they announced the winners made it obvious who were in the Top 3. I'd honestly be happy with the 3rd or 2nd prize, but we really did win the 1st prize! :')

It still feels like a dream, actually. :)

Check our winning entry here~

Frustration

2011-10-27T22:51:00.001+08:00

Saw this photo when I woke up and it made me smile like an idiot who's completely in love. ♥

I can already foresee that this post is going to be full of whines and rants and reflections and what not.

Let me start with school. Tomorrow's the last day of school, and we only have to go for three hours. A little bit pointless to go, but it's the last day of school for the whole year! Class party is actually one of the items in the itinerary for tomorrow. I can tell I'm going to have a very fun time~ Tomorrow is also the day I've been dreading. Meet-The-Parents session at night. Mum's coming and I'm just scared that she might murder me right after she sees my results.

Results... very horrible for the end-year component. I'm hoping that the other 55% of the marks will somehow bring my grades up. Please? I already know that I've been promoted to Sec 4 next year, but I think I really have to work harder to get 10 points of my O's. Fighting, fighting~! There's nearly no more time to slack and fangirl, because I have to go full throttle ahead to get the desired grades. F9 to A2... not gonna be easy.

Today was horrible. I went through a serious change of moods, from extremely upset to kuku-in-the-head happy, no kidding. Actually, I was pretty neutral in the morning, until it was time to announce the winner for Dunman's Got Talent. They popped the confetti thing and some joker sitting next to me thought it'd be fun to put some in my hair. The small pieces of confetti stayed on my head because of the curls that somehow 'trapped' it there. His friends got a good laugh, of course. I was so pissed, I had a black face from that time to when it was time for rehearsal for our presentation. Please know that there's a limit to fooling around. I'm being very patient already, so don't push it.

Presentation for the competition's next week! We had 3-4 rehearsals today, and they said I was quite good. Let me be proud for a moment, hehe. As usual, I talk too fast, but eh, at least I was able to project my voice, which is already quite surprising. I'm shy, y'know~ :P

If you've managed to read up to here, congratulations! *gives cookies*

Disappointment

2011-10-21T16:12:00.002+08:00

Received all our papers and mark sheets within two days. It's really fast, and I can only say that I'm disappointed with what I scored. The results when I study and when I don't study are nearly the same, so when I got back my papers, the only thing I could think of was, "What's the use of studying if the results are all the same?" Yeah...

I had another fallout with a friend. It happens kinda often, so I don't feel anything anymore. She might be hurt, I don't know. So sick of drama and what not. When people overreact, there's nothing I can do, is there? It's all up to her, not me. *shrugs*

EMKB is slowly dying, and it's all my fault. I really need to pick up the pace and update regularly again. I feel so bad for not updating as fast as we used to before we went on hiatus. :(

On a brighter note, I'm starting to write again. I've written a whole chapter, and I have a one-shot to write for Gladys~ Hope it turns out well! :D

Kevin's so cute in this performance he did with 45RPM yesterday on M!Countdown. ;~;

Their Someday performance was absolutely AMAZING. Hoon and Kiseop on piano, and the rest just sitting there and singing. So perfect. :')

FREEDOM!

2011-10-15T20:42:00.001+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!

Time to enjoy the next two weeks before getting thrown back into hell during the Nov/Dec holiday in order to prepare for our 'O' Levels next year. ㅋㅋㅋ

미치겠다

2011-10-07T16:46:00.002+08:00

6 papers down, 8 more to go! English, Malay, Social Studies and Animation papers are done and over~ I'm left with A Maths, E Maths, Phy/Chem and Geography. I'm going crazy. 헐 ~

I can say that I've screwed my Social Studies. 3 days' worth of effort studying all washed down the drain. I can't really blame anyone, though. It's just that I'm not efficient enough? I can't sit down and do work for hours. Hmm. :\ I was planning to get a B3 for Animation, but it looks like that's not gonna happen. I did selective studying for it, so it's gonna be a surprise if I pass.

A Maths, E Maths, please be nice to me. Geography, Phy/Chem, I WILL CONQUER YOU! 화이팅!!

I feel like I've should be taking more photos to post, now that the family camera is somewhat mine. 8)

Look at what my brother got me as a motivation to study harder! He asked Marsya to pass it to me while saying, "Study hard and don't be stupid!" I will definitely study harder! By the way, my laptop is not a mini one. That Piro Piro on the other side? Ear to foot, 45cm. Imagine how big the poster is. :D

I found out that Sungha Jung's coming here in December!! Shirly's going with me! Yay, thanks Shirly! :D

cr: sunghajung.com

Off to watch Music Bank and then study my butt off. There wasn't any school today because our principal wanted to give us a day off for our CCA achievements! :D Tata ~

Hmm.

2011-09-22T17:46:00.003+08:00

Getting shitty results first thing in the morning sucks.

Being treated as if I'm invisible sucks.
Having body aches all over sucks.

Today's such a horrible day.

Insults. Will they ever stop?

2011-09-19T17:08:00.002+08:00

Just when I was hoping for a perfectly fine Monday with nothing going wrong, two girls just had to screw it all up for me. Long story short, I was tired and laid my head on the table during Malay class. I just didn't want to do anything so I closed my eyes as well. They thought I was asleep so they started talking about me.

If I was pointless to talk to, then why do you talk to me? Wouldn't it be just a waste of your time? And if my hair was way too thick and curly, covering my ears, for me to hear, wouldn't I be deaf by now? I wouldn't be able to hear anything, would I? Please, think before saying anything.

I really don't understand people who find joy in insulting others. Is it that fun to see others get hurt because of your words? Isn't this a form of bullying as well? If you think you're just joking around, well, what may be funny to you may not be funny to others, especially the affected party. If you think it's fun, it's not. It's far from fun and I'm saying that from experience.

I don't really care about taking in insults about my body or hair anymore, because I'm somehow used to it, but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt. Insults always hurt. I try not to take it to heart, but sometimes it's difficult since they keep coming my way. I'm just wondering... Will they ever stop? Looking at the way things are going, they're not gonna stop any time soon. So much for asking for forgiveness, huh?

One more year. Just one more year.

I'm going to crawl back into my shell now. 뿅 ~

Awesome 15th!

2011-09-08T01:37:00.002+08:00

So, it's 8th September now. My birthday is over! Had a really, really, great day! :D

Started my birthday by tuning in to the boys on MBC 심심타파! They were so natural! Radio party on the moon, as well. What fun! :D Stayed up until 3am to chat on the moon with Raia! The conversation steered towards Kevin and Tobias. Hilarious. Gotta thank Kevin for that.

I woke up at 9am and finished watching City Hunter. ;~; Such a great drama! The scene where JinPyo was shot dead was so sad. Even sadder when YunSeong (who was also shot) reached out to hold his hand for one last time. ;~;

Just when I finished watching the last episode, the bell rang. I ignored it because I didn't care. Then, my sister's maid came to my room and told me that many of my friends were outside. I was obviously shocked and quickly had to change and what not because I still haven't showered. How embarrassing!

Zhuojing, ShaoYu, Hannah, Lynn, Syazwan, Faris and Berwyn came! :') A bigger group than last year's surprise, which was quite a fail. :P

They surprised me with a cake that they baked the previous day for 3 hours late at night! Super touched. ;~;

They dragged me out to Seoul Garden to eat! Met Loraine, Fadzil and Zakirah there. :D We occupied three tables, hoho! They treated me, hehe. So nice of them! :D Sat with Hannah and Lynn and ate about four plates of meat. Lynn just ordered everything in one go, so plates of meat and chicken came at once. They cooked everything for me. :3 Played Kartrider on Berwyn's iPad against Hannah and Lynn! Hurhur. ShaoYu even fed me ice-cream while I was playing. Treated like a princess. :P

Watched The Cat! Korean horror movie, starring Park Minyoung! *o* ... Those with weak hearts should not watch it. Seriously. I was covering my eyes and ears nearly 3/4 of the time. At one point, I even took my iPod out to listen to Neverland 2집. I'm the best, yo. xD

Celebrated birthday with family at night! Lots of home-cooked food, yum. Thank you, Mummy. :3

Chocolate ice-cream cake from Swensen's from Abang and Kak Yani! :D Yumz!

Presents, presents! :D

From Mummy and Daddy! :D

Necklace from Taka, and a pink teddy pendant from Swarovski. :3

From Aju (and Hyder, I think)! :D

Finally a new watch after, what? 3 years? xD

From Ari and Aunty Suraya! :D

There's four more, but I totally forgot about them until now. Oh well. x)

From Cherlyn and Steffi! :D

Skin Food. I still don't know what to do with it. xD

From ShaoYu! :D

Opened it and ate some before taking photos, hurhur. :3

From Syazwan! :D

Cute, cute mug. :3

From ZhiXiang! :D

I seriously didn't expect him to get me anything, but he gives me a U-Kiss mug. Aww. ;~;

From Loraine, Zhuojing and ShaoYu! :D

Seriously touched. They did so much for me. :'D

This birthday, so far, is one of the best birthdays of my life. The people I have to thank.. there's a lot.

My family, always.

Moonpies. Dal-lings. T-list. Wishing me right after midnight, thank you so much. ♥

My friends who took the time and effort to surprise and touch my heart. :')

And everyone who wished me, through Twitter, Facebook, text, etc. :D

... I feel like I'm giving out a speech LOL. Tata~

P.S: Just had to add this in. Kevin's melodious voice never fails to calm me down. :')

Neverland

2011-09-01T18:00:00.001+08:00

It's Thursday and there's no school tomorrow! Which only means that my one-week holidays start from today. I can really use the free time to rest and catch up on lost sleep.

D-6 to my birthday. I've been going round and telling my close friends that it's coming. Not because I expect anything from them, but because I don't want them to forget. The feeling when your close friends forget your birthday sucks. It really does. My friends might mistake my intentions, but I can't bring myself to care, really. I'm just somehow protecting my own feelings. :\

Neverland was released last night! Brisk walked home from the carpark, in order to make it to my computer on time. I had 10 minutes to spare, whoo! Seriously not being biased here. Neverland is really, just... pure awesome. The album is really beautiful. The songs are all so great and I'm so, so proud of the boys for pulling something as great as this off. Kiss Me will just be hoping that this album will bring them that #1 trophy they've been waiting for for three years. I have faith. :)

From the album, I really like 친구의 사랑 and Take Me Away. The album is just full of ballads, apart from a few upbeat songs, and the boys pulled off both types of songs superbly. I love the ballads; it shows their true vocal talents. :')

Neverland MV is really just too awesome for words. Check it out yourself! *o*

3 Years of Kisses

2011-08-28T23:20:00.001+08:00

Hehe, I edited that myself. ^-^ *points upwards*

It's been 3 years since U-Kiss had their Korean debut. I wasn't there from the start, but I don't regret joining them halfway in their journey. Better late than never, right?

They've been through so much. Ups, downs, difficulties, you name it. It hasn't been a very easy journey for them, yet they're still pushing through. It's through these boys that I learn how to go on and never give up. They've never given up, even though there were times where stones were thrown at them. People bashed them, but they don't let that bother them. They continue going on for the fans they love that love them back.

They started as six, and then seven. Fate decided to be cruel and took two wonderful boys away, but gave us another two lovely boys. They became seven from five. Through it all, they're still nine in my heart. These nine boys taught me so much, so much that I won't be able to forget whatever values they've taught me. Through these boys, I've met so many new, wonderful people. I stopped hating, and started loving. I stopped giving up, and started being determined in everything I do.

If I had the chance, I'd tell them personally how much they've changed my life for the better. They don't know me, but that's okay. As long as they're happy, I'm happy. I cry with them, laugh with them, smile with them. U-Kiss and Kiss Me are my second family that I will always love and support. If it weren't for them, I wouldn't be this happy now. I'd be moping around because I'll always think that life sucks, but these boys changed the way I look at life, and I'm thankful that I've let them into my life.

I will always love, cherish, protect and support these boys because they deserve every single bit of it. I love them so much, words can't express it. Thank you, U-Kiss, and I love you.

Neverland & Someday

2011-08-26T18:31:00.004+08:00

Dun dun dun ~ Looks really amazing, huh? If only this was the album cover, hmm. >_>

Anyway, both teaser and Someday were released yesterday! I had to camp in 3C with no lights and fans on because I didn't wanna get caught for using my phone in school. I scared quite a few people from my hiding spot, though, hehe. I began counting down to the teaser since morning. Even when I was doing my papers, I started smiling and tingling inside whenever I though of the teaser, no joke.

NHM released the teaser on time! I'm impressed.

Seriously, what a GREAT teaser!

The boys all look so freaking amazing! I really like the ice sculpture! I wonder how much it cost. Anyway, Kevin was undoubtedly the most eye-catching in the teaser! The way he just moves his hand across his face while smirking. I nearly went crazy yesterday because of him, but luckily, I didn't. That would have been embarrassing since I was watching the teaser in school! Not only Kevin looks great. The others do too! I really can't wait for the music video and album to drop. ;_;

10 hours later, Someday was released! 15 minutes before that, I had Melon, Bugs, Mnet, Soribada and Dosirak open. Just imagine me refreshing each one when it was 12AM KST. Listened to the one-minute preview from Mnet and I was just stunned.

The song is SO beautiful! ;~; It's been playing on repeat ever since I got my hands on the full version last night! One thing I really love about Someday is that every one of them gets at least a few lines. Now, we all know that they can sing really well. Don't get me started on the lyrics. Okay, I will, anyway. x)

Sometimes hit, sometimes miss, it's always like that.

Just do it right tomorrow, it's just a small mistake.

Your suffering now is a sign of your hard work.

You get some right, you get some wrong.

Although tiring, there will be days to smile.

When you fall down, when you get up.

Eventually, a day to smile will come.

Everybody knows you tried. Everybody knows it's alright.

Everybody wins sometimes. Everybody knows you lose some.

(Translated lyrics from rocketboxx!)

The lyrics are really just beautiful. This is my new motivational song. ;_; The lyrics, the beat, the voices. Everything is just perfect and I'm really, really proud of my boys! I hope they'll perform this with Neverland during their comeback stages, like how they sang Before Yesterday and Shut Up. ;_;

Enough talking about the album! Common Test is already somewhat over, woo! Last paper (Combined Humanities) on Wednesday! Today's Friday, but I didn't have school because of my school being a centre for polling for the Presidential Elections. No school until Wednesday! Monday's a school holiday, Tuesday's Hari Raya. Thursday's Cross Country. Friday's a school holiday for Teacher's Day. So my last week of school, and I only need to attend on a day! Cross Country isn't counted since it's outdoors. :P

Went shoe shopping this morning with Mum! Bought a pair of beige wedges to go with my baju kurung and long dress for Hari Raya! Really like it a lot since it's so pretty! Maybe I'll post a photo up another day. There was another pair of heels at the same shop and it was really, really nice but there wasn't any size for me. :( I actually went to other shops before this one, and some of them had awesome pairs of heels that I like but they were too high. Mum said I'd look like a giant if I bought and wore them since I'm already tall, pfft. T-T

I got bored of studying on Wednesday night so... ^-^

I have a big face, I know! I don't know what made me take selcas.

Maybe I was just super bored and seriously had nothing better to do.

I very rarely take photos of myself so it's okay. A few times won't hurt. ^-^

Common Test 2

2011-08-22T22:51:00.000+08:00

Common Test 2 starts tomorrow! I'll admit that I've been being a lazy sloth and have not studied a single thing. Yay for me! ... Not. Mr Latiff, my Physics teacher, was like pleading (yet not really pleading) me to at least pass Physics since I've been failing. Mostly failing by 1 or 2 marks, jeez. What a waste.

If I really don't buck up, I can say bye-bye to going to Disneyland after O Level prelims next year. Pretty sure I can lose the weight that I need to by this time next year, but if my results are like trash (like how they are now), I can kiss USA goodbye!

I'm suddenly feeling very down now. I have no one to talk to and I'm too awake to sleep. Dear Naz, when will you realise how important your studies are? When are you going to do something about it? When it's too late? I'm telling you, you're going to regret. You're going to break down and cry. It isn't too late now, why not pick yourself up and start going forward? Why not start believing in yourself? Why let your flaws bring you down? Why only look at your bad sides? Why forget about your good sides? You have so many people caring and loving you but you still bring yourself down. Please wake up and realise everything before it's too late.

... Yeah, I had to do that. Recently, I don't like it when I rant to someone for things like this, especially to people I've ranted to before. I feel like they're getting tired of my pointless and endless ranting. Well. :\

On a totally brighter note, U-Kiss are making their comeback soon! Their new choreography and MV set looks so freaking amazing. I really can't wait for the album to drop.

Abrupt ending. Adios!

:\

2011-08-20T21:34:00.000+08:00

It sucks when you're feeling down for no reason.

It sucks even more when you don't have anyone to turn to.

D-6

2011-08-20T11:29:00.000+08:00

Things have been absolutely crazy, but I'm holding on. I can't give up, not right now. Common Test starts in 3 days. I really can't believe how fast this week flew by. I've been looking forward to the weekends so I can rest, but now reality hits and I have to study. 헐 ~

Stayed up till 2am last night. Crazy conversations with Raia, and also Lyna, Arynah and Steffi. Instiz is saying that U-Kiss' title track will be revealed on 26th August, and that's in 6 days, hence the post title. Raia says that Instiz has never failed her before, so this only means one thing. D-6. :D

Caught the boys on K-Wave yesterday! Ran out of the room when I saw tweets about them being on TV, and almost fell, but whatever! They look so freaking amazing and the sneak peek of their new choreography is just wow. Hoontokki (Tumblr) caught it on video! ^-^

I really went crazy over them last night. Can't wait to see them on stage again. I kind of miss fangirling over them. :')

Busy day today. Collecting r2pi shirts for myself, Cherlyn & Shahira from ukissmeSG, then get my fringe straightened for Hari Raya, then off to Kakak's house to break fast. I should bring a book, paper and pen with me, in case I get bored of reading and want to write, vice versa.

I love 3E'11. ♥

Stressed

2011-08-14T23:43:00.001+08:00

Like the title says, I'm stressed. But! I'm stressed and happy, so it's perfectly fine. ^-^

Talked to a few people today, and I'm feeling extremely contented with the caring and loving people I have around me. I'm only 15, why be all emotional? Enough of petty problems, enough of getting jealous of every single thing. I'm gonna try and be contented with whatever I already have, and it's been working. Recently, I've never felt more loved and cared for.

I'm still going to have my fair share of problems, but hey, I'm gonna solve it and get over it. Not only me, but everyone should do this as well. It's no use crying over spilt milk, nor is it worth dwelling on something that you know is going to make you sad.

Several people have already told me that they believe in me, and that I should believe in myself too. I'm going to try. No one's perfect, right? I have my own flaws, and also my good sides. I'm not going to let anything bring down the usually happy, hyper and retarded me. :D Come to think of it, I miss being crazy and hyper. I let problems overtake my emotions lately. It's unhealthy. :(

Anyway! Tomorrow is Monday, and I really hope for a good week ahead! Common Test start on 23rd, so I'm gonna focus on my studies and try to not get distracted by the amazing thing that is the Internet.

By the way, Zico is amazing. His rapping is full of swag, and his mixtapes are just awesome. First laid my eyes on him when I was watching Music Bank on Friday. His performance with HyunA was totally WOW. No worries, my loyalty and heart lies with my beloved Ubiquitous 9. :P

Comeback

2011-08-11T18:58:00.001+08:00

U-Kiss are making their comeback soon! :') Word has been going around that their comeback stage will be on M!Countdown on 8th September. Fervently hoping that it's true, because it'll only be a day after someone's special day. *coughs* :3

Anyway! Went to airport on the 7th to welcome B1A4! It was so nice to see Gladys, Guean, Shahira and Ruc again after quite a while. I swear, I almost went deaf because of the deafening screams. CNU's hair is really... bouncy. Jealous.

Really not happy with all my results so far. Every time I got a test paper back, I'd go into my own little corner in my brain to scold and cuss myself. Then, I'll just be quiet for a few hours. By quiet, I really mean quiet. Not even opening my mouth, and ignoring everyone around me, even when they talk to me. Yup, it's pretty bad.

And... I really cannot let moodswings get the better of me.

Insecurities

2011-08-06T18:46:00.002+08:00

"Have you ever felt so insulted that you tried to lose weight?"

Yes, yes, I have, and the feeling isn't all that great, either. It hurts so much to be looked down upon, and it only contributes to my already low self-esteem and zero confidence. I guess I'm the one to be blamed, since I don't really take care of myself. I do try, though.

I've been taking insults in since primary school, and I think it's safe to say that I'm immune to every insult directed at me. It hurts a lot, so much, that I'm just numb. I don't show any reaction, but inside, it's another story. It's like I'm never good enough as who I am now. It's not like anyone understands, anyway.

I do feel comforted when I turn to people, but the comfort doesn't last long. I just keep looking down on myself, and I really, really don't know why. Maybe, I'm not comfortable with who I am now, or maybe I'm not confident about myself or, maybe, I just cannot accept myself. It sucks.

On a somewhat brighter note, I lost 3kg, but my brother insists it's only water loss. Hmm.

On a totally brighter note, we're only left with two scenes to composite and render for our animation competition. Then, we'll just compile everything together and we're done! :)

Tired

2011-08-05T23:46:00.000+08:00

This week has been so... wow.

I have to go back to school tomorrow, stay back on Monday (when it's half-day) and go back on Wednesday (a school holiday), all for Animation. As much as I love animating, I hope we'll quickly wrap up and submit our entry for the competition. It's been draining nearly all of my energy. ):

Alexander's fanmeet in Hong Kong tomorrow! Why am I not there? I miss him so badly, and I wish I could be there to see him in the flesh again. T-T

Eli's been active on both Twitter and Tumblr nowadays! His replies and posts are always cracking me up. It's during these times that I realise again how much I love the boys and how important they are to me! I'm not even joking. They're so precious. :')

Also, nowadays, I've been feeling down for no reason at all. I get affected a lot more easily, and more often than not, I let my feelings take over. I think negatively, I look down on myself. Then again, that's normal, isn't it? I don't know. I'm confused myself. I think there's something wrong with me, but I don't know what it is and I'm having a hard time trying to figure it out.

Well then, better sleep early tonight to prepare myself for my long day tomorrow. :)

I Am The Best

2011-08-01T22:04:00.000+08:00

내가 제일 잘나가

Nothing can bring me down!

화이팅!

Keep Running

2011-07-24T18:58:00.000+08:00

I've been getting better, thank God. ^^

Today was one of those days where I become moodless all of a sudden, and then get hyper again. My emotions were like a roller coaster today. One minute, I'm smiling, another minute, I'm down. I'm pretty amused by myself, if I may say so.

"Sometimes in life, there will be no one to piece you back together when you get knocked down. Those are times where you are most unfortunate because it's going to take 110% to bring yourself up on your own. Don't question, don't ponder. Just run forward. I think this is one of those situations where if you keep thinking about it, you're just wasting your own time and effort. But if you just put in your effort full throttle right now and keep going, you'll find a way. Have a little faith and belief in yourself. I believe that you can do it. And I'm sure a lot of people do too. But it only starts if you try believing yourself."

That whole chunk of words up there are from Yunah. I was bored so I decided to backtrack our Skype messages. :')

I may sound cheesy or whatever now, but seriously. I really, really appreciate those who've been there for me. Some people whom I've known for years aren't even there for me, but those I've met only a few months back are the ones constantly there for me, giving me their shoulders to cry on, listening to me rant, giving me advice, and they are the ones I know I can trust and rely on.

Those who've been there for me constantly (you know who you are), if you're reading this, I just want to say thank you, and that I love you. ^-^

Hot Hot ~

2011-07-21T20:01:00.001+08:00

Feeling so lethargic, and I should be resting, but I'm worrying over my Math test instead.

I should have known better. I should have known that a week of constant stomachaches was not normal. I suddenly fell sick last night, with a sore throat, and a runny nose, later into the night. Lalala, still went to school, because I didn't feel that sick.

After lunch, just before Animation lecture was about to start, I felt my own forehead and... dun dun dun, I was burning up. Burning up, burning up, for you, baby ~ ♪ Teehee. Jonas Brothers were my childhood. :D Anyway, Mr Tang told me to go home, since the lecture is at the Animation Lab, and it's freezing cold in there, so my condition might just get worse if I went for it.

Tried to fall asleep... to no avail. I'm not feeling that much better, but better than before. ... If that makes sense. I really hope I get well soon. I feel like ripping both my nose and throat out.

I absolutely hate being sick.

Afraid

2011-07-19T00:24:00.000+08:00

I've been thinking a lot nowadays.

I'm smiling, pulling through. Inside, I'm dying.

I need things to take my mind off things, so that I won't think so much.

너무 힘들어... 근대 포기하지 못해. 힘내!

Korean Music Wave

2011-07-15T22:19:00.001+08:00

U-Kiss is currently performing at the Singapore Indoor Stadium as I type this out. Surprise surprise, I'm not at the stadium.

My Friday was actually pretty good! A few of my friends were upset, though. :( Hugged a lot of people, just because I felt like it. All of them said that I'm nice to hug, hoho. I'm a teddy bear. :)

Went for lunch with Hannah at McDonald's and Beryl joined us afterwards ~ Bought Koi and went back to school to help Ms Choo with the toy train Animation workshop! Today's class were actually pretty fast in modeling, except that some of their parts went all over the place.

Started seeing live updates on Twitter and became all upset. They're in my country, for goodness' sake, and I'm not even there! Kevin is the MC... I should really hate myself for not going.

People think I shouldn't be upset because I've already seen them in Malaysia, and even got an individual group photo with them. But I don't see the logic in that. I actually have the chance to see them today but no, I'm not there. Wouldn't it be weird if I wasn't upset? The feeling is like, "they're in my country but I'm sitting at home like a loser instead of cheering my lungs out for them". I even cried.

Boys are going back to Seoul tonight. Quite shocked, I was expecting them to go back tomorrow morning! :( But... it wouldn't make a difference, I won't see them anyway.

I hope they come again soon. :\

Shut Up

2011-07-10T20:35:00.000+08:00

You've really been getting on my nerves these past few weeks. First, you order me around. Fine, it's the first time anyway. Then, you do it again. I snapped, and I was told off for snapping at you. I was made to promise to change and to treat you better, and I did make the promise.

Today really did it. I can't believe you're implying that I didn't help for our group project. Who the hell do you think you are? I chose to just rant generally, because I know I would say something that will hurt you. I'm keeping my mouth shut just because of that stupid promise that I shouldn't have made.

Really, watch what you say or do around me. My patience is wearing thin. Don't try me.

Sometimes

2011-07-05T15:43:00.000+08:00

Things just get harder and harder.

I'm getting tired.

이제 그만 놀자.

2011-06-29T22:41:00.000+08:00

Only the first three days of school and I feel so tired already. Long school days always drain the energy out of me. I come home, dump my bag, collapse onto my bed. Is this going to turn into a routine?

Always

2011-06-28T19:38:00.001+08:00

Forever.
Waiting for someone to make me feel otherwise.

I thought of the nine boys.

Except that I've done the first three.

Still, I must be mad.

900!

2011-06-27T20:35:00.002+08:00

cr: leilockheart

900th post! :)

Today was quite a good first day of school. ~~I felt left out~~, but that's okay.

Told myself I'd be more hardworking from this semester around. No more room for mistakes, no more room for fooling around. Well, maybe I can fool around, just for a little bit to destress. It's gonna take a lot of effort and determination, but I think I can do it.

Why am I trying to push myself so hard?
Because I don't want to disappoint anyone again.

Meow.

2011-06-26T15:54:00.001+08:00

My new LJ banner, made by Steffi.

Isn't it pretty? ^^

Will be changing it once I'm ready to post my comeback fic. :)

I've been saying 'meow' a lot these days. I don't know why. Maybe it's because of AJ. Hmm.

Bought my new chair yesterday! Bought a table lamp and this laptop support, too. Was so tired but satisfied with my purchases. :)

It's funny how some people can make everything your fault even when you have nothing to do with it. Maybe it's just human nature to push the blame onto someone else. Then again, I don't know. I don't like being blamed for something I didn't do, but when I want to argue back, I can't find the words to do so. Sucks.

School reopens tomorrow. The timetable is looking okay, so far. I hope nothing screws over tomorrow. Animation after school, though. I'm fine with that, I guess.

Homework is still incomplete, so I better get off the computer. Adios!

:(

2011-06-21T22:37:00.002+08:00

I hate feeling so weak and vulnerable.

:)

2011-06-17T18:16:00.001+08:00

I am grateful to have such friends standing by me. Sometimes, I honestly feel that the friends I meet online are more trusty than those I meet in person. They're always there, to listen to my problems, and they tolerate my ranting which can become very annoying.

I spent time looking back at my old blog posts today. My blog posts were so short and typed without any thought. Quite amusing, really.

Looked back at my first fanfic as well. I remembered her, who helped me with it. I'm glad we broke ties earlier this year. I don't need anyone like her in my life. One who judges very single action of mine, every word that comes out from my mouth. One who had bad intentions, who was never sincere about our friendship.

It's all good. :)

And Marg, thank you so much for last night, love. ♥

Thank You

2011-06-16T02:04:00.003+08:00

After my very emo post last night, I decided to talk to someone. Someone whom I think would care. Thought of talking to Yunah but she was asleep, so I turned to Marg instead. I realised that everyone is going to hurt me, sooner or later.

"See who is always there for you, who is always there to listen to you and your problems. These people who are giving you love without expecting something in return, are the people who are worth everything."

I can definitely list some people who are always there whenever I needed a shoulder to cry on. There are quite a few, and I feel lucky to have them by my side. I'll always hold them close to my heart. :)

Today, I wanted a change of my Twitter profile photo. I've been wanting to put my own photo for quite a while, so I narrowed down my already-small pile of photos. I decided on the one that's in my sidebar, and Yunah helped me edit it into an icon. ^^ I was a bit self-conscious, though.

If I ever feel really beautiful one day, I'd have Yunah and Marg to thank. Both are forever saying nice things about me, both appearance and personality wise. I'm almost, almost starting to believe their words.

Oh, and, a very happy 18th birthday to my darling yeot, Joan.

I miss Kibum. I wonder how he's holding up.

Crap.

2011-06-15T00:00:00.001+08:00

Reading my old blog posts, I want to go back to when I was a kid. When I didn't have to worry about anything. When I had everything taken care of for me. When I had no problems at all. Too bad, we all have to grow up someday.

Nowadays, I'm always thinking negatively. I have no idea why, either. The thoughts just come without me wanting them to. It just.. happens. I can't stop it. I don't want to. I can't run away from problems, can I? Even if I do, the problems will find me again.

I hate it that I'm so insecure and so self-conscious. I don't like feeling like I'm worthless and useless. My biggest fear, is being forgotten, and I've been forgotten by a lot of people. I don't want to feel like that again. I wish there'd be someone who makes me feel important, someone that makes me feel like I'm wanted, someone that makes me feel loved.

I always feel like I'm annoying everyone around me. I feel like I'm doing everything wrong. It's like I can't do anything right. I don't know if it's me, or something else. It's probably me. I have no idea on what to do.

I don't even know what's the problem, so how can I solve everything? God, please give me strength and energy to go on. I don't think I can continue putting on a fake front for much longer.

Malaysia with U-Kiss was awesome. :)
Blog currently under construction, it should be done over the weekend. :)

Oohlala.

2011-06-06T22:33:00.004+08:00

I know I haven't posted a decent post in a while, so I figured, why not post today since I'm free? There's nothing else for me to do either.

School, school, school. It hasn't been that easy for me, and I'm very disappointed with my results and also myself. Who is there to blame for my horrible results? Only me. And because of my results, I was down in the pits for a few hours, refusing to talk to anyone. That was, until I got home and went online. Worries disappeared and I felt better.

I admit that I've been slacking off for school. I admit that I've been lazy. I nearly didn't study for everything. Then I realised, what am I going to do with my life if I keep wasting it away? Yes, I'm still young, but I've got to plan for the future, no? 'O' Levels are at the end of next year, and like my teacher said, preparations start from this year. Am I going to continue slacking off and end up doing badly for my national exams? No, I'm not going to. So I've decided to pick myself up, throw away all distractions and get myself back on track. There's still time for me to catch up, anyway. I think I can, with support from my teachers and friends. :3

Animation has been stressing me out. Well, not really the subject, but the competition I'm involved in. I have four other groupmates. I'm on good terms with three of them. The other one... not so good, but still okay. As a group led by our teacher, being the creative people we are (coughs), we came up with a pretty cool idea. I think it's enough to get us to the finals. As group leader, I have quite a lot of responsibilities but I think I can handle them. I hope I can. I'm screwed if I can't.

I've been talking to my mum about the U-Kiss events in Malaysia. Initially, she gave me permission but my dad came into the picture and I can't go anymore. I understand why, though. I guess it's not meant for me to meet them in another country. I shall wait patiently for the boys to come here instead. Actually, I can go for the free showcase. If only my parents move their trip to KL forward... I hope they do. Muahaha.

Talking about Malaysia... knowing their schedule and all that, the boys will definitely be beyond exhausted. A two-day schedule squeezed into a day. The boys are liars, they'll say they're not tired just so that fans won't worry. The bad thing is, most fans believe them. I hope they rest whenever they can. D:

For the past month, I've been thinking about my writing a lot. I always have long breaks in between chapters or one-shots and I'm pretty sure my readers don't like that. I'm not sure if I can commit myself to writing. Furthermore, I think my writing for fan fiction is horrible, even though some disagree with me. I haven't posted anything since 2nd May and I don't know if my readers are still there. Then today, I realised, how much I love writing and I wouldn't give it up. Why was I even considering it? Writing lets me explore my own imagination, coming up with things that most probably won't happen in real life. It is all fiction, anyway. So yes, I'll be making my LJ comeback soon with the final installation of my chaptered fanfic. I hope my readers are still there. :D

Evermore Kibum opened last week. It's been getting quite a lot of attention and support, and I'm glad. I can't wait for it to grow and be the primary source for all things Kibum. Speaking of Kibum, I miss that boy a lot. He's in Japan and returning to Korea tomorrow ~

Speaking of Japan (LOL), the boys will be in Japan for 3 whole months. How will I survive? I miss them a whole load already. :( They're tweeting in Japanese most of the time and I don't even understand, so I feel more lost. o.o I don't know their schedules anymore either. So sad. D:

Oh yeah, oh yeah. Moonpies, I hope you're reading this, LOL. You guys make me feel loved and wanted, so thank you for that. Thank you for cheering me up whenever I'm down. Thank you for always being there, through chat, Twitter, or even text. Thank you, thank you, thank you. I love you.

I'm gonna change my blogskin soon. I'm waiting for Yunah to work some magic on my blog. :3

MANAGER SHIN ~

2011-06-05T13:27:00.002+08:00

That, is Shin's (U-Kiss' manager) cyworld.

And that, is my photo that he posted. 8D

I love you, Shin ~ ♥

Kibum my love~

2011-06-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

I'm pretty sure that I love you.

More than I thought I would.

You're wanted and needed.

evermorekibum.

2011-05-31T14:44:00.002+08:00

evermorekibum.

EMKB

2011-05-28T16:31:00.003+08:00

Never thought I'd spend this much time doing things for you.

I love you more than I thought I would.

1000 Kisses

2011-05-24T23:39:00.003+08:00

To be honest, I haven’t been with U-Kiss for long. I found out about them in March 2010, and I started to be really into the boys only in June 2010, after meeting them. However, in less than a year, I’ve experienced so much.

The boys don’t really ask for much, do they? We know they’re aching to win, to clinch the top spot and finally get that desired trophy. I think they’ll be happy even with a single win, not a triple crown. They’ve been working so hard, and they’ve yet to get back what they truly deserve. But does that stop them from moving forward? No. They continue to strive and they never fail us, never let us down. Up to now, they’ve always been making us proud.

When the major change came in February, everyone had a tough time coping with the news. The boys’ pain is definitely bigger than ours, though. Imagine separating from two of your best friends, or brothers even. Not easy. But our family only grows. It never breaks. Now we love all nine, don’t we?

U-Kiss, thank you for bringing us together. Thank you for always putting in your best effort. Thank you for putting smiles on our faces and for bringing us laughter. Thank you for not letting anything bring you down. There are so many things to thank you for, but most importantly is, thank you for being YOU, the U-Kiss we love.

Alexander, Soohyun, Kibum, Kiseop, Eli, AJ, Hoon, Kevin, Dongho. I love each and every one of you. I will walk with you throughout. I’ll fulfill my promise of supporting and loving you until the end of the road.

Happy 1000 days! Here’s to another 1000 days of kisses and more!

Wtf.

2011-05-14T15:58:00.003+08:00

It's depressing to know that the boys are being treated this way. It's so unfair. It hurts even more to know that they think they're not good enough to clinch the top spot on music shows.

I've always wondered why everyone can't see what I see in them. I can't control one's thinking, but I do hope that everyone can see what I see. It's sad that their talent is not being seen. They've been working their asses off for a long time. Isn't it finally time for them to get what they deserve? I'm not asking for continuous wins, I just want one.

I'd do anything to get the boys whatever they deserve. Their song doesn't deserve to be cut. Why is everyone being so unfair? They don't cut the songs of those that are popular. U-Kiss is underrated. I'm speaking the truth here. They don't even get recognised that much.

To know that they're content with all the fans' love and support breaks my heart. They deserve something more. They want that top spot, but they think they're not good enough. It really hurts me to know that I cannot do anything.

Let them have their big break, please. Even if they don't... I know, for sure, that I'm going to be with them until the end of the road. That's a promise I will never break.

no way

2011-05-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

If you think hurtful words will bring me down, you're terribly wrong.

The only person that can bring me down is me.

I will prove you wrong.

I will show you what I am capable of.

what a fool

2011-05-09T21:59:00.003+08:00

I seem to be thinking negatively too much nowadays.

Almost every single time, there's at least one lingering in my mind.

It's not like anyone understands...

How can they when I don't even understand myself?

Exam period... but what am I doing?

What's done is done and I can't undo anything.

Just need to reflect on my mistakes and improve...

Maybe even let a few tears escape.

Very close to contacting D but the thought of her letting him know and the possibility of him being upset... I can't do it. How can I even think of doing that?

stagnant

2011-04-29T15:09:00.002+08:00

My post count seem to be stagnant. I've had this blog since five years ago and it still has not reached 1000 posts. Amazing.

On Tuesday, I found out that I'm not allowed to go for the events in Malaysia. That's too bad, though, because I asked a few weeks back and I got the green light. But now, everything is messed up. Maybe I'm not meant to meet them. But there are many other chances, I believe. Well, I'm forcing myself to believe that. I'm gonna make myself happy by reminding myself that Kibum's coming on 21st May. :)

No matter how hard I try, no matter how hard I work, the results are forever the same. Always failing and getting borderline passes. Maybe I should just stop trying and fail everything. Or maybe I should work even harder and pull all my hair out... to get borderline passes again. Envious of how others score well without even studying. Why can't I be naturally smart, too? Then I wouldn't have to try so hard.

Since it's the exam period... I should probably go study. If I get borderline passes... well. There's nothing left for me to say.

This is a rather negative post. Sorry.

MYE

2011-04-25T21:57:00.001+08:00

I am tired.

Beyond exhausted.

And I've yet to study shit for mid-year exams.

Yeot everything.

HIATUS UNTIL END OF EXAMS.

달 사람

2011-04-22T15:43:00.003+08:00

Finally escaped the people and came into the room, kwahaha.

Photographer for the day, then I'll be able to borrow the DSLR for Kibum's fanmeet. Hoyeh.

Meh meh meh ~ I'm like trolling everyday and that needs to stop. Like, right now. It's bad for my own good. ):

But but... hehehehe.

Ooooo Thailand photos. /on a saving spree/

This is actually a short one... but...

I LOVE YOU, 달 사람!

Btw, Tuna, if you're reading this, I really, really like your rocket necklace. I'm not even kidding.

달 사람

2011-04-16T17:14:00.003+08:00

Two years... What are two years?

In about two weeks, I feel safer with 달 사람 than I've ever been with you.

They make me feel included. They listen to me when I have something to say.

I'm not saying you've never done that. You have, but there are times that you don't.

Which is why I'm hurt and disappointed.

Truth be told, I don't think I can do this anymore.

You don't even consider me your best friend when you were the one who have been saying it.

달 사람, 3E, t-list and a handful of friends put the smile on my face nowadays.

what even

2011-04-12T00:55:00.002+08:00

It's not my fault if you can't handle anything being thrown towards you.

Time isn't going to stop for you, and neither will life.

Life goes on, with its ups and downs.

There's nothing you can do to stop it.

You're trying, but not hard enough.

DIE A HAPPY GIRL.

2011-04-11T01:15:00.002+08:00

The photo above says it all.

Kibum, you are so precious.

I really, really miss you.

Thank you for making my Sunday night a wonderful one.

I love you. ;~;

달 사람 are awesome people.

We are cool people. We are people in the cool chatroom.

We speak Eli's language, the language of Thongs. :D

Goodnight everyone!

NUMBER ONE

2011-04-07T20:46:00.004+08:00

So I was really disappointed today when you weren't even in the Top 10.

It was heartbreaking and my hopes were crushed.

I honestly expected you to win, with the online votes and all.

But we're not giving up.

We'll work extra hard for you, like you did for us.

Most groups get instant success because of their company or whatever.

But you're different. Very different.

You had to wait for so long, even after working so, so hard.

And we're going to help you get everything you deserve.

The recognition, the number one, that trophy.

Just hang in there a little while more, boys.

We're not going to let you down, we're not going to fail you.

Believe in us.

don't like

2011-04-06T17:25:00.001+08:00

I don't like how things are turning out.

I really don't.

too much

2011-04-05T23:11:00.003+08:00

I need to set my priorities right.

I need to stay strong.

I need to pull through everything.

And I will.

idek

2011-04-04T17:14:00.003+08:00

Finally going to say something about what's going on.

If you've found out the reason(s) behind everything, why don't you make a move? I'm being stubborn here, but I'm not going to say anything because I've always been the first one to do so. I'm not going to apologize for something I didn't do. Yes, I did in the past, but not anymore, now. Time for me to stand up for myself.

I don't want to be the one taking the initiative. I can, but I don't want to. If you know that we're drifting apart because of your responsibilities, at least do something, even if it's a little. At least we can do something about this. You don't even talk to us anymore...

No, I'm not angry. I'm just upset and disappointed.

To be honest, I feel like the sources of happiness I have are the nine boys, my t-list and 3E. I'm not sure if there's anything else. I don't even know what's going on anymore.

So, take the first step, won't you? We used to be so close.

Good news is;

U-Kiss topped Mnet's voting chart, which makes up 20% of the total score.

I hope they really do win. They really deserve this.

Time for them to get some recognition for all the hard work they have put in.

0330

2011-04-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

U-KISS IS BACK WITH 0330!

2nd on mnet, vs. Hyungjun.

So, so proud and happy for them. :')

I guess.

2011-03-20T03:23:00.004+08:00

I guess it's safe to say that no one ever comes here, since I've removed this link from Twitter and all, plus it's kinda dead since all I ever talk about is U-Kiss now.

Truth is.. I'm hurt. Deeply hurt. There's a scar on my heart that might never heal. There's so many things going on that sometimes I don't even want to think.

First off, is of course, U-Kiss. Words cannot express my full love and admiration for them but here I go.

They never asked for much, they only asked for love and support, to at least win once on music shows. They have the love and support, but I'm sad that they've not won on music shows, which was why I was extremely happy when they won that award in Taiwan. We showered them with love and concern, and they repaid us back with the same amount, if not larger. They've always shown concern over us, if we're hurt, sad. They even take prayer requests and reply us when they see the need to. It's obvious that they put a large amount of hard work in, and it's somehow disappointing when they don't get recognized for that. We understand them, they understand us. We know how hard they're working, we know when they're down and when they're happy. Some need to understand, that I'm past the obsession stage. I passed that stage so long ago, and now the boys are like family to me. Real family. U-Kiss and Kiss Me are family, and I can really feel the love coming from everyone. We smile together, we shed tears together. They feel that they're lacking, but not once have they disappointed us. We accept them for who they are, lacking or not, because they definitely deserve the love and support coming from all of us.

They say that 2011 is the year of U-Kiss. But look what's happening now? Fans are leaving, because they cannot accept the fact that Alexander & Kibum are gone. They cannot accept AJ & Hoonmin. What happened to our family that was once so strong? We were forced to break apart, forced to accept the harsh reality that two left. After two weeks, two more guys were revealed, and like it or not, they were the new members. I had a hard time accepting them too, but because I know we're family, I accepted them. We support nine, because they're all family now, whether or not they promote together.

We were disappointed, but we got over that obstacle, so that we can stand strong once again for our nine boys. But what happened today? JOFF edited our two family members out, covering their faces with texts, saying it's not obvious. Well, that hurts, because it was absolutely obvious and I hate how our family members are being treated like this. But there's nothing that we can do, it's all over now.

The tears all of us shed, the smiles we shared. Every moment with U-Kiss is memorable, good or bad. I really do hope that others can pull themselves together, even stronger than ever now, so that we can shower these nine boys with more love and support, because they need it. All of them are going through a tough time, and need us more than ever now.

Let's not fall apart, and stick together as family. We are one.

Happy birthday, my darlings.

2011-03-12T20:00:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, on 11th March, it was Soohyun's 22nd (23rd in Korea) birthday.

Yes, the same day the earthquake and tsunami hit Japan.

Happy birthday, my dear power vocal.

Please lead the younger boys well.

I know you'll never fail us, Shin Soohyun.

I love you. ♥

And tomorrow, on 13th March, it's Eli's 20th (21st in Korea) birthday.

Happy birthday, my beloved pigeon.

Please make a great comeback to prove others wrong.

I know you can do it, Elison Kim.

I love you. ♥

;~;

2011-03-06T01:10:00.001+08:00

Cause I've been hurting and this weak heart can't take it much longer.

My heart aches to see my boys like this.

Everyday

2011-02-26T16:24:00.005+08:00

Everyday, the pillow gets wet at least once.

Going through everyday with a heavy heart, knowing that nothing will be the same.

But I need to stand up and be strong for these boys.

These boys need the support more than ever now.

These boys taught me important values I would never have realised if I had not joined this fandom.

They taught me:

- Commitment

- Growth

- Determination

- Endurance

-Devotion

- Perseverance

-Ambition

- Friendship

-Teamwork

- Love

-Trust

-Care & concern

I've grown so attached to them in just 8 months. Come June, it'll be a year since I became a Kiss Me.

In eight months, I met them twice.

And I can shed so many tears for them.

These boys made a great impact in my life, and they will continue to be.

Beautiful essay written by u-logic here.

It's worth a read, really.

I cried my heart out while reading.

I just realised how much I love these seven boys.

I wanna be there

2011-02-25T16:37:00.005+08:00

Kibum & Alexander left U-Kiss.

Kibum's contract was terminated because he was lacking in certain areas and NHM wanted a member replacement.

I don't know what's going on with Alexander, but he's still under the contract.

Both are just perfect the way they are, so why are you doing this, sajangnim?

I don't understand.

Kibum & Alexander,

I wanna be there to hug you.

I wanna be there to comfort you.

I wanna be there to help you get through all this.

But I can't. Because we're miles apart.

I wish I could, then you'd know how much you're loved and wanted by all of us.

I really wanna see a genuine smile on your face.

No matter how long it's going to take, I'll wait.

Body's betraying me

I thought crying twice was enough

and I didn't want to cry anymore

but the tears just don't seem so stop...

Kibum...

2011-02-21T18:50:00.008+08:00

If I could fly, I'd fly to Korea this instant.

I'd give him a really big, tight hug.

I'd let him cry on my shoulders.

I'd let him stay in my arms even if he didn't want to say anything.

I'd be the one comforting him, giving him moral strength.

There's so many things I want to do for him now and in the future, but I can't. He's all the way there and I'm here, miles away. All I can hope is that he'd find the courage and strength from all around him and get back up again, to continue moving forward. I also really, really hope he can feel all our love from all around the world. He's greatly loved, and he needs to know.

I want the old Kibum back.

I don't care if he takes a long time to get over this matter.

I'm supporting him, standing by his side until everything is okay.

I really, really don't like the way things are going now, but there's nothing I can do. I can just stand by the sidelines. Cheer him on. Give him all the love and support he needs. That, I can.

범대표님, 그렇게하지마세요.

전 오빠 믿어요.

힘내요!

기범아, 사랑해요. 항상.

헐.. 왜이래.. ㅠㅠ

Alexander, U-Kiss

2011-01-25T16:30:00.004+08:00

You started out with nothing.

You had to do everything you could to ensure your survival in the industry.

No one noticed you, and you were demoralized.

You almost gave up, you almost went through depression.

But you never gave up, and look where you are right now.

If I could, I would have noticed you back then when everyone else didn't.

If I could, I would have followed everything you said, everything you did, because I wanted to.

If I could, I would be with you right now, helping you cope with all your troubles.

Yes, I'm new to this, but you mean so much to me.

It hurts to see you like this, and my heart breaks for you.

You don't know how much you're loved and supported, and I wish you did.

There's more than what meets the eye.

Even if you don't know that I exist, I will always be here, whenever. You can count on me when you can't count on others. That, I can promise you.

PIRO PIRO ^o^

2011-01-24T16:54:00.004+08:00

PIRO PIRO IS HERE ~

And so is my Vons diary.

I AM A HAPPY, HAPPY GIRL! 8D

P.S. Me on the left, Jeanette on the right. ^^v

Sec 3 camp

2011-01-23T18:18:00.000+08:00

This is long overdued, and I'm rushing this because I have piles of homework undone. So let's get started.

Even if it was only three days, we, as a class, went through so much. Happiness, disappointment, etc. Just three short days and so many things accomplished.

On the first day, all of us were with our cliques, rarely talking to each other. Reason? We weren't familiar with each other yet. The waterfall expedition didn't help that much either. I admit, I was at the back with the rest of the boys and Belicia, not bonding with my other classmates.

For the first half of the second day, we failed at the rafting activity. The raft we built fell apart before it was even put in the water. Mr Latiff talked to us after that and I realised. It's not the result, it's the process. If we don't have a strong foundation in life, we can't even enter the race, yet alone start it.

Our instructor, although fun and interactive, wasn't that much of a help, and thus, he got replaced. By the camp chief, no less. Why? Mr Latiff requested for it, because our class was falling apart instead of bonding. Through only four activities, we bonded so much more. So, so, much more. Jetty Jump, all of us shouted whatever we wanted the class to know. Indiana Jones, we supported each other. It was really difficult jumping from each platform to another. Whale Watch. We were once again taught; it's not the results, but the process. We lasted for six seconds on our own. With the help of the other group, we lasted 15. But which was more fulfilling? Six seconds, of course, because we did it all by ourselves.

Rebirth was the most special to me. There was this huge tire, from I think a monster truck. We had to carry everyone. And yes, even I got carried. I was afraid, I didn't want to go through it. I didn't want my classmates to carry me. But because I trusted them, and because Chief Daniel talked to me, I went through it. All of them carried me, and I got through the tire. I even cried.

For those who aren't happy that we won for being the best class, you can take the medal. The medal isn't everything. What's most important, is the bonding that we did, and how we stuck together throughout.

3E, the class I'll be with until the end of 2012. I love you.

If I told you

2011-01-22T17:18:00.002+08:00

If I told you I was perfect, I'd be lying.

If there's something I'm not doing, I'm trying.

I'm no angel but I'm not so bad.

[Yunah]

#ohmyKISEOP

2011-01-17T21:37:00.005+08:00

Kiseop turns 21 today! Let's party, everybody!

Kiseop, I'm glad you're living your dream. I'm glad you pulled through your depression, and finally joined U-Kiss. I wouldn't be able to picture U-Kiss without you. You make U-Kiss complete. I'm really, really, thankful for that. Continue living your dream, continue being the dorky, cool, weird guy that you are. I will always love you, no matter what!

Happy New Year!

2011-01-01T00:00:00.002+08:00

Goodbye 2010, Hello 2011!

Cordy's Christmas Party

2010-12-27T15:20:00.006+08:00

Cordy's Christmas Party was AWESOME + FUN. :D

I arrived first with Cherlyn about 20 minutes before we were supposed to be there. Hehehe. Then, the others came! Shirly, Jiajing, Liqing, Sue, Gladys, Guean, Tiffany, Rosanne, Jeanette, Anthea, Yolanda, Vanessa and Yanting!

I expected more people, but turns out this is kind of a small get-together. :D Everything was so crazy, I can't even keep track of what happened. xD

All of us were tweeting Alexander and Uncle A for them to come to Cordy's party since they were in Singapore. It was hilarious. Even people who weren't there asked the two of them to come to Cordy's. We even thought that "Cordy's house" would trend on Twitter. xD

It was my first time meeting the other ukissmeSG girls and they're all really funny, friendly people. Rosanne especially. She + Sue entertained us pretty much the whole time. xD They kept calling Tiffany 'purgeface'. I don't know why. But it's funny. xD

We only started eating after Guean, Yolanda and Tiffany came. The food looked great! Too bad I couldn't eat it. D: I survived on chicken though. :D

After eating, some of them went inside the room for aircon, while the rest of us stayed outside and started talking. I can't remember about what, but it was pretty hilarious because of Sue and Rosanne. Sue's a real pedo. She kept saying, "You want to sit on my lap?" LOL. Like Santa, like that. xD

Once all of us were inside the room, we started taking photos using Cordy's webcam. They spammed shots so it's like... WOW. LOL. More than a hundred photos in less than like, 10 minutes. xD

We played the game that AlVinSon played on Pops In Seoul. It's like a sentence relay, and you have to blast music using your own earphones. Out of the many rounds we played, only two were right, if I'm not wrong. xD Frying cheesecakes, Xander likes panties, Eli likes Gabby. Gladys was the black hole, lmao. She could turn an English sentence into a Chinese one. Laughed so hard for all the rounds, my stomach and face hurt. xD And Sue heard "jackpot" as "sexpot" LOL.

I don't celebrate Christmas, but this was one fun party! I really enjoyed it. Thanks for the invite, Cordy! :D

simple

2010-12-20T01:32:00.003+08:00

Simple things remind me of why I love U-Kiss so much.

101216 ukissmeSG

2010-12-17T14:47:00.003+08:00

I got this photo from Ant's Twitpic. :x

Those who stayed till the end. 8D

Yesterday's ukissmeSG gathering was totally awesome. We ate a lot of good food, made a lot of new friends, exchanged Christmas cards, etc etc.

Went out with Loraine first in the morning, to get her FBTs and do her Christmas shopping. Everywhere I went, there just wasn't a single issue of Teenage. I was so frustrated! I found my copy at White Sands anyway, hehe. xD We ate lunch at Pastamania, and I got a horrible stomach ache after that. ):

Met Steffi & Cherlyn at Bishan. Then off to Yishun to meet the rest of the girls~ Everyone was so friendly! Cordy saw me and was like, "YOUR HAIR!" LOL. xD Cordy & Steffi were going on and on about tarsiers. They thought they saw a tarsier plushy but it turned out to be some other animal, hohoho.

Seoul Garden ~ Shimin came and we exchanged cards. Shimin & Steffi, thank you for the cards, they were very nice. CHERLYN I EXPECT MINE SOON. 8D

Ant, Cordy, Gillian & Liqing were wondering what happened to my hair LOL. But I guess they liked it. xD Hehe~ Finally people liking my hair, tsk. They said it reminded them of Alexander's afro, though. And Liqing kept thinking that Alexander was my bias because of my hair. xD

The Garlic Chicken was the best. Took a whole plate of it! Finished up most of it together with Shimin but let a few pieces burn because we were too full. We made friends with the people at the table next to us and there was a Pigeon, HoneyVin, Xanderette and PIRO! Omg Cherlyn & Steffi were so excited when they heard Ernie was a Kibum fan. LOL.

After dinner, we wanted to go sing karaoke but Party World cheated us, LOL. They said $8.80++ for 4 hours but when Cordy asked, it was $20++! Shimin & Cherlyn didn't stay because Shimin couldn't and Cherlyn was having self-control and wanted to save money. We didn't spend money anyway. Her lost, kwahahaha. I donated my leftover money for the World Vision project. 8D

Since we couldn't go karaoke, we took off our shoes and sat in a circle at the kids' corner. xD We did a round of introductions, and Ant couldn't stop about my hair. "Afro!" LOL. xD She also compared both of our heights. Let's just say she's petite for a 19-year-old. But petite is cuteeee! 8D Anyway, they were all amazed by both my hair and height. xD We played a round of 'I Have Never' and thankfully, I survived. Their forfeit was MMHN + BGBG + Shut Up dance. Hehe. They almost did it, until the guard came and chased us away. Tsk!

And so we gathered in front of the toilets, LOL. Cordy gave a very cheesy speech. Hehe. They told us more about their World Vision, World Wildlife Fund and KK projects! They're adopting a child from World Vision if I'm not wrong. And two animals from WWF for Kibum & Kiseop! I can't forget Ant's & Grace's reactions if they were Kibum & Kiseop. When ukissmeSG adopts an animal, they will send a certificate, plushy and gift box to the boys that say, "ukissmeSG adopted a ____ on behalf of you" blah blah blah. Then Ant & Grace were saying that they will be like, "OMG I HAVE A PANDA!" and when they come to Singapore again, they'll go, "WHERE'S MY PANDA!?" LOL. Ant & Grace are really funny. xD And so, they decided to get everything delivered to Cordy before they send it off to Korea together with the KK birthday message books. LOL.

I was talking to Liqing while waiting for my bus to come! She waited for me even though she didn't have to, hehe. The bus ride home was way shorter. If I had taken the train, I would've reached home after midnight. :o I reached home at about 11:45. I've never reached home that late, hehe.

Thanks to ukissmeSG, I got to meet a lot more new friends. Being a Kiss Me sure is fun. 8D

If it isn't obvious enough

2010-12-14T22:15:00.002+08:00

As if it isn't obvious enough, I don't want to do the blog challenge anymore. It made me more bored. And I already have a new mission.

CHRISTMAS CARDS! 8D

That will keep me busy, heh. Okay bye ~

Challenge 3

2010-12-05T22:01:00.001+08:00

3. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?

I've been looking forward to this topic. 8D

♡ Sit down with all my family members, tell them I'm sorry for all my wrongdoings and tell them that I love them a lot, no matter what. I'll make it quick though.

♡ I'd go around, telling all my friends that I'm thankful for their support, and for being there for me always.

♡ Eat all the food that I want. At least I'll go with a full stomach. :P

♡ Teleport to Seoul, magically find Kevin and tell him that I love him. Spend a few hours with him and make sure he misses me when I go, muahaha. xD

I have so little things that I want to do. Wow. I'm a simple person? LOL.

Challenge 2

2010-12-04T23:04:00.004+08:00

2. Write about the best friends you've had over the years.

When I was in kindergarten, I had this friend named Shahira. We would go everywhere together. That is, until K2. She was trying to get me to go to her primary school with her, but I wouldn't because I didn't want to. We lost contact just like that.

For Primary 1 & 2, I went everywhere with Liyana. We are still friends now, but we just don't talk. We just went separate ways after we were split into different classes I guess. After being split, we just didn't contact each other. From best friends to hi-bye friends. Yeah, we weren't that bonded to begin with, so I guess it's okay.

Primary 3 - 4. That was where I met Hasyimah and some others. It was just one whole big group of us really close friends. I had a feeling that they didn't really like me, but we were, what, 9? So I just didn't think that much about it.

Primary 5 - 6. I think it's safe to say I never really called anyone my best friend. I just had a bunch of good friends. During that time, I didn't trust anyone that much because of certain things.

And then came secondary school.

The four of us. Loraine, ShaoYu, Zhuojing and I. We actually got to know each other more because of D&T. Then one thing led to another and we started calling ourselves best friends, LOL. Even though there were some misunderstandings, emo moments, bitchy moments, I'm glad we've lasted till now. Hopefully we'll stay together for many more years. :)

Then, there's Syazwan, Faris, Khairul, Fadzil & Zakirah. We've been hanging out a lot recently. The boys are like my brothers, and Zakirah's like my sister. We actually got together because of Malay class. Oh yeah, Amira & Syaffana too. They're a bunch of cheerful people, really. They make me smile and laugh whenever I'm with them. Such jokers. And they like to make fun of me, but I guess I don't really mind since they're all just joking around with me. (:

My #ukisscrew! How can I forget them? Cherlyn, Steffi, Uyen, Tracy & Shimin. Whenever we're out together, we act like maniacs. Public nuisance, if you ask me. We're just loud. Shimin especially, whenever she sees Dongho. And we spazz about U-Kiss a lot. Like, duh. LOL. I love them all, even though we've only known each other since June. I only got to know Shimin in October, actually. They're really special to me, and I'm pretty positive that they'll stay in my life for a long long time. :D

And lastly, there's Khoiriyah & Natasha. My tuition people. K-Pop people. Whatever. LOL. I still love the two of them. ^^

If I didn't mention you, please don't be upset. I treasure all my friends dearly. :D

Challenge 1

2010-12-03T23:03:00.005+08:00

1. Post 16 facts and a photo of yourself.

Must I really post a photo of myself? ): Okay then, at the end of the post. :D

Facts!

1) I don't care about what people think or say about me. I used to, though, but that changed after I talked to Liqing & Gillian. I mean, I am who I am, if you can't accept it, then well, too bad for you. If you can't accept me as the plus-sized, annoying, hyper me, then you're not worth my friendship. Simple as that. I only need people who accept me for who I am. :)

2) I get amused over the simplest things. Like two people saying the same thing at the same time, a small photo, something that's common but I've never seen before. I amuse myself sometimes too. Like when I discover some new small feature on some program, I'll react as if it's a very big thing. xD

3) I can just lie on my bed with the computer or with my phone the whole day long without getting up. The things technology do to me. :x

4) I'd appreciate a long thought instead of just an 'okay' or a 'lol', especially if I've just ranted to you. When I rant, I want something back, like an advice or something. I get annoyed when you only reply back a word after I let out everything. If you reply back with only a word, don't expect any reply back. I'd feel like I've just wasted time explaining everything. ._. It wouldn't be nice if someone did it to you, would it? I'd like to think not.

5) I don't like it when people judge me. I do what I want, say what I want. You have no control over me. I don't like it when people expect me to follow their orders either. Dude, I'm not your dog. I don't really like pushing people around, unless it's extremely important, like meeting a deadline or whatever.

6) I can be nice, I can be mean, I can be a total bitch. I'm nice when you are. But when you give me attitude, or show me a black face, I can do the same back to you. Don't take advantage of my kindness, okay? I can go from nice to bitch in a second. I'm mostly nice and calm, though. ;D

7) I am a total Kiss Me. If you don't know that by now, then you must be blind. /points upwards/ The songs are all U-Kiss too. Actually, when I'm bored, I can just go on and on and on about how amazing U-Kiss is. Yup. It's actually fun being a Kiss Me. The boys are just so nice and humble. I love Alexander Lee Eusebio, Shin Soohyun, Kim Kibum, Lee Kiseop, Eli Kim, Kevin Woo and Shin Dongho a lot.

8) I have my own #ukisscrew. That's made up of me, Cherlyn, Steffi, Shimin, Tracy & Uyen. All we're missing is a Royalty. Our group already contains a Xanderette, Piro, Seopie, Pigeon, HoneyVin & Dongholic. Yup, just need a Royalty then we'll be complete. We hate two-faced bitches, though. Keep that in mind. Oh, and stalkers. If you don't know what those names are, they're fan names, for each member. Pretty cool if you ask me. :)

9) Talking about stalkers, I absolutely detest them. Be it in vans, or running after them, or going to their hotel. Don't you guys know something called 'privacy'? What do you get from running after them? Uh, nothing. They'll get annoyed. I know, you'll say, 'they're stars'. That's true. But they're already in the limelight 24/7, why can't you just give them some alone time? Seriously. They're still human beings, y'know. They need their personal space. Asking for things like straws they drink from is NOT cool. It's disgusting. You settle for their saliva? Ew. How low can you go? Purchase the fanmeet ticket, you'll get closer to them than you ever will by stalking. :)

10) I don't like it when people insult K-Pop. People say being a fan of K-Pop is useless, etc. But hey, I don't insult the type of music that you like. I listen to K-Pop because I enjoy it. Fangirling is just an extra. If you think I'm crazily obsessive, there's fans that are way worse out there. I'm actually one of the sane ones, now that I think of it. And who are you to insult the people we like, huh? We don't insult the singers you like. So what if they look/act like gays? They're just pretty, and the acting is all fan service. No worries. They can still sing, can't they? They don't lip-sync, you know. (I'm talking about U-Kiss in particular, because I'm biased. 8D)

11) I think that being a Kiss Me is beneficial. I will never regret being one. I will never regret being part of ukissmeSG. The boys are nice, they're humble, they're sweet, they reply to us. U-Kiss is good enough. But being a Kiss Me is not all about U-Kiss. Kiss Me are great people too. Everyone comes together, and this is what we like to call #LoveIsUnity. ukissmeSG is amazing. Instead of spending money on gifts for the boys, they're planning charity work. We already did a Free Hug event, and Flag Day for the boys' second anniversary. It felt good to bring a smile to a stranger's face. :D

12) I don't really like it when people whine about the smallest stuff. Okay, sometimes I do that. Proven guilty. But don't you go saying that you have the worst life because of some small problem. People out there don't even have food, and here you're being blessed with everything you want. Be a little more grateful. If you look at life on a brighter side, life ain't all that bad. You just have to learn how to be thankful for everything you have. :)

13) I am fickle-minded. I don't make decisions quickly. I take quite a long time to decide on something. Indecisive. :D

14) I'm a dreamer. When I'm bored, I dream a lot. I come up with impossible scenarios. It's actually quite fun. You all should try it sometime. You escape harsh reality, and it feels good, even if it's only for a while. :)

15) I'm naturally a nice, smiley, person. I can't get mad or sad for a long period of time. Give me an hour or two, and I'll be back to normal. But of course, if the thing that made me down is big, it'll take longer. I like to avoid depressing situations. Smile, and the world will smile along with you ~ :D

16) I write my own stories. I post them up ~somewhere~. Hehe. If you know the URL, then please leave a comment. If you don't, then too bad for you. I write stories mostly based on U-Kiss. If you don't like U-Kiss, then don't read them. No one's forcing you. :D

PLEASE DO NOT LAUGH AT MY PHOTO. D:

/hides forever/

25 Day Challenge

2010-12-02T22:43:00.000+08:00

I'm bored during the holidays. Forgive me. :D

1. Post 16 facts and a photo of yourself.
2. Write about the best friends you've had over the years.
3. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you want to do?
4. Write about a period of time in your life where things seemed to be constantly going good.
5. Write about a period of time in your life where things were not so good.
6. Post your favorite quote.
7. A letter to you parents.
8. What's the nicest thing anyone has ever said to you?
9. What's the meanest thing anyone has ever said to you?
10. Write about the worst day of your life.
11. What are your plans for the future? Far and near.
12. Post your favorite book, favorite movie, favorite band, and favorite food.
13. Write about something you worry about a lot.
14. Write about your relationship status.
15. Bullet your day.
16. Post one confession/secret.
17. Write about your last birthday and how you plan to spend your upcoming birthday.
18. What did you eat today?
19. How has your life changed over the past year?
20. Find a horoscope site and post yours.
21. Write about your first kiss.
22. Where is somewhere you would want to visit?
23. If you had three wishes, what would they be?
24. Write about any particular habits/mannerisms that you have.
25. Where do you think you'll be in 5 years?

Birthday presents?

2010-11-26T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hehe, two of my top ten favorite photos of Kevin.

cr: @Kevinwoo91

cr: as tagged

And Diana & Madeline are drawing them out as my birthday presents. Awesomeeeee.

My no.1 love.

2010-11-21T14:18:00.008+08:00

HEHEHE I love you guys. So much. ♥

Why?

2010-11-21T00:21:00.003+08:00

I will never forget 20th November. Why?

Because of Sheikh Haikel, all of us KISS-ME united, became stronger, and trended #ukiss on Twitter. It's been trending at the top, the number one spot, for an hour ++ now, and I hope it'll stay there longer. Because my boys really deserve this.

They've always tried their best for us. They practice real hard for months in order to put on the best performance, for the sake of us. They control our smiles and our tears. They only want the best for us, and we for them. They've always hidden their sorrows just to make us smile, and they really shouldn't do that, but they did. They always show that they're grateful for us. They made us proud because they really try hard. They do fan service, and a hell load of it, just for us, for us to smile and laugh with them. They never complained, and took everything in. Of course, we wouldn't know their pains unless they reveal them.

Kevin was surprised that #ukiss was trending, at top spot no less, but he shouldn't be. They deserve everything they can possibly get. The love, the support, just everything. Alexander said he didn't think that U-Kiss was good enough to take a spot in worldwide trending. I was totally shocked when I read that. Not good enough? They are NEVER not good enough for anything. They deserve the best, and only the best. Others may not see their talent, but we will always have their back. We love them for who they are, not allowing their fame to change them.

Alexander Lee Eusebio, Shin Soohyun, Kim Kibum, Lee Kiseop, Elison Kim, Kevin Woo, Shin Dongho,

You guys are really the best. Don't ever look down on yourselves. You've come a long way since 2008. I know that you've not won number one and is hurt by it, but you never stop trying. With your schedules filled with practices, musicals, variety shows, game shows, I'm really surprised that you are still continuing. But I am really proud of you guys, for not giving up. You've felt like giving up, but don't you ever do that, because Kiss Me will always be here, cheering you on. Don't you feel the love blossoming? I will always love you guys, for all the years that have yet to come. U-Kiss, fighting!

They'll never read that, but oh well, LOL.

I just found out that Kevin made a heart for Shimin. I is a jealous girl. I shall go crawl into bed and cry.

From @ukissmeSG to @alexander_0729:
The world may change my whole life through, but nothing's gonna change our love for you.

From @ukissmeSG to @Kevinwoo91:
Don't stop, never give up, hold your head high and reach the top. Let the world see what you've got, bring it all back to U-Kiss.

U-Kiss once said, "They thought they'd see us fall, but we stood so tall & no, we won't forget."

Anthea said, "The U-Kiss I love is always growing, loving & trying. I love how they change others' views not by changing but with their actions & words.

But, my favourite quote of all is,

"There's no end to the sky and sea, as long as there's U-KISS and KISS-ME."

Annyeongha~seyo 101119

2010-11-20T19:19:00.007+08:00

HEHEHEHE HI.

I saw U-Kiss yesterdayyyyy. :DDDDD

Cherlyn was late in meeting me at Ang Mo Kio. After we bought her Barney stickers, we cabbed down to IMM. Went to Daiso and bought a paper bag for Kevin's present! It's black and it's nice. Okay that's not the point.

The boys came, and went backstage. Then they left. Like whuuuuut. I saw Alexander drinking something, as usual. That boy never stops eating. Then they came back again, then went up on the stage. Like omfg, so perfect. Soohyun proved that he's the king of fan service, like always. Eli was a show-off! He took off his blazer, and he only wore a wifebeater inside. Not that I mind. Kevin was sosososo cute. Alexander was... high. Kibum was "showing off" his English. Such a dork. Kiseop smiled so widely, it turned out funny, but cute. And Dongho, our maknae, was cute, like duh. He's the cute, lovable maknae for a reason.

4 girls were "picked" to stand a chance to win the boys' personal items. I'll explain more later. Anyway, the girls danced to Man Man Ha Ni which was totally fail in my opinion. Another 4 sang. But whatever, it's all unfair but they walked away with the boys' personal items which includes Alexander's t-shirt, Kevin's signed bottle of perfume, Kibum's FAVOURITE perfume. So yes, go die. /screams

The boys had to drink something. 6 cups were plain water, one cup was lemon juice. And the girls had to guess who had the lemon juice. Alexander had it, and he let one girl drink from the same cup. Totally uncalled for. But yes, Alexander was the one and the girl walked away with something. Hooray. ._.

The fansign started. We found a Soohyun bias to go with us. Melina, you are awesome. Thanks for saving us, hehehe. So we all got our bias' signature. Kevin wrote my name, omg. He asked me how to spell it when the paper with my name was in front of him. Heh, sweet much. You probably don't get it but okay. I don't care. Only I need to understand. More on my private blog, which none of you know. HAHAHA.

Kevin was so cute, smiling and waving at me like that. Why couldn't we get handshakes? ): Oh and I was pushed off the stage. Idiots. There weren't that many people and we ended earlier than expected. No reason to push. What if one of us falls and injure ourselves? Are you going to be responsible? I don't think so.

The concert was... okay. The boys performed Man Man Ha Ni, Mworago, Bingeul Bingeul, End Of The Road and Shut Up. Why must they perform End Of The Road? It made me cry. But it was still awesome, to watch Shut Up live. My ukisscrew and I were shouting fanchants and we even screamed "PEACOCK" during Kibum's part, to show Kibummie some love. Peacock peacock peacock peacock na na, peacock peacock peacock peacock daeji, oppa nege nege nege jichyeosseo, neomu neomu neomu handa, guman sarajyeo! ... Ok sidetracked.

The boys' flight was on the same night, at 2350. They flew first class on SQ. SHIOK.

I miss them already, actually. Hi, U-Kiss, come back soon. Xoxo.

COMPLAINING PART.

Oh, I am so pissed off. UkissliveSG is full of lies, and more lies. I'm glad Willy's going down to CASE to report them.

UkissliveSG, you liars. Full of empty promises. You "Kpop expert" failed to notice that fans are extremely observant. One mistake, and you're going to crash and burn. You promised all of us seven signatures, but we ended up getting only one. And how much did we pay for ONE signature? $130. Such bullshit.

You told us you put red tags in the albums and randomly gave them out. The people with red tags in their albums will go on stage to win the boys' personal items by playing games or whatever. But what am I hearing now? Those girls you "picked" were either related to the organizers or media. They couldn't even sing or dance properly to Man Man Ha Ni, and embarrassed themselves. They showed that they're not real Kiss Me. I feel so sad for the boys, their "lucky winners" don't even know the lyrics or dance to their hit single. What a shame. What kind of underhand method is this? You said that there'll be a fair chance for everyone. So don't put the blame on anyone but yourselves.

And stop blaming the management. We all understand that the boys are in a rush and would do anything for them to get as much rest as possible. But to make empty promises and continue lying in front of the boys is a complete nono.

From what I know, everyone is pissed off, and you promised ukissmeSG some things that you didn't carry out. You just proved that you are totally unprofessional. Once again, don't put the blame on anyone else but yourself.

I'm disappointed in Sheikh Haikel. To think Cherlyn and I cheered for him yesterday. He called U-Kiss a bunch of shit stabbers. Sheikh Haikel, you should know better than bash someone who has a broader fanbase than you will ever have. You're just jealous that no one cheered for you, and purposely said "U-Kiss" because you know that all of us are Kiss Me. Don't use my boys' name.

Sheikh Haikel's wife, Anna Belle Francis, is another person asking for hate. I won't bother to elaborate, because it's just a waste of time.

Enjoy the hate, people. That's what you get for messing with us. :)

new layout

2010-11-17T12:05:00.002+08:00

I have a spanking new layout, all thanks to Steffi! :D

U-Kiss is so amazing. /hearts in eyes

THEY ARE COMING TOMORROW! Hehehe.

I'm seeing them on Friday. 8D

Somehow I still can't believe it. Anyway, Sofia gave me a great great idea for a birthday present for Kevin. Hehe, I don't think anyone did it before? You never know. Hopefully he opens it up. ._.

Short update, but who cares. It's still an update.

YAY U-KISS I LOVE YOU MY SEVEN LOVELY BOYS! ♥

Rant

2010-10-26T22:44:00.008+08:00

I know this is like, my 3rd time blogging today, but I really need to rant.

Okay nevermind. I typed a whole chunk of 500 or so words, but I deleted everything. Guess I'm too... soft? I don't know.

But seriously, if I'm ignoring you or whatever : REFLECT.

If you can't find anything wrong, talk to me YOURSELF, not get your friends do it.

My new toy. ^^v

Eli + Kevin (Elvin)

My favourite couple.

Eli, I hope your hand heals soon.

But for the meantime, Kevin is there. 8D

[And one hand is Kevin's. Eli does not have 3 hands.]

[Psst, Kiseop's an extra. My ulzzang. ^^]

My wallpaper.

It's in HD.

Hell yeah.

Oh. Cherlyn, Steffi and I made shirts. The exact same one as theirs. *points above*

Hope it turns out nice. :D

no cheesecake

2010-10-26T16:20:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry Kevin, but no cheesecake for you!

I'm not allowed to. ;_;

Don't be sad. ):

But honestly, I'm sad too. D:

Bonus photo of Alexander + Soohyun. xD

Gay?

2010-10-26T16:06:00.003+08:00

More often than not, whenever I show others a photo of U-Kiss/Kevin, the comment I'll get is : "Ee, gay!"

Gay? What right do you have to call them gay when you know nothing about them? Who are you to judge them by their looks? You know nothing. You don't know their personality, you don't know their habits, you don't even know who they are. You always judge by their looks. You don't know what's behind the make-up, you don't know what happens backstage. Most importantly, you don't even know them as well as I do.

To me, they're one of the best groups around. Never care about their image, keeps in touch with fans through Twitter, upload funny images, do a hell load of fan service etc.

Like Alexander always say, they're more of a ~~idol group~~ family.

I present to you, my seven favourite boys.

Alexander Lee Eusebio

{The Toy Box}

[Albeit a little weird, sometimes confusing and mostly random, Alexander will always be our very own.]

Shin Soohyun

{The Microphone Stand}

[Soohyun is our resident power vocalist, known for his amazing singing ability.]

Kim Kibum

{The LV Monogram}

[Kibum may seem cold at first, but he will eventually warm you with his dorky personality and performance aura.]

Lee Kiseop

{The Ninja Star}

[Kiseop is pretty. Really, really pretty, and he has the perfect personality to boot.]

Elison Kim

{The Bird Cage}

[From making us laugh due to his infamous pigeon imitations to making us swoon with his smooth voice, it's hard not to fall in love with Eli.]

Kevin Woo

{The Cheese Platter}

[We shall call him Kevin, and he shall be ours and he shall be our Kevin.]

Shin Dongho

{The Knitting Basket}

[Dongho is the cute, lovable, knitting and pink-adoring mushroom of the group.]

U-Kiss.

My favourite idol family, and it will always be that way.

Everything in { } and [ ] is from rocketboxx.net

All credits go to them.

Fan service going on right now on Twitter.

/saves and logs off

something

2010-10-12T21:38:00.003+08:00

Something happened, and I'm very happy! Plus, my Break Time album + Kevin's photocard is with Cherlyn now! ^^

I'm happy, it happened, and it might be exaggerated because of my wild imagination, but I'd like to think it's true~ ^^

I'll blog what happened on my private blog ~ Woohoo, I'm so happy! :D

Don't mind the two crazy people at the back, they're U-Kiss' managers. Focus on the person in front ~ My love. x)

LMAO, the pizza is bigger than his face! xD

FINALLY

2010-10-07T21:56:00.005+08:00

Finally, my 7 lovely boys got their wish ~ No.1 on online charts ~ ^^

And their MV came out today ~ AWESOME.

The only reason why it's flagged is because of the topless HOT bodies~ LOL. You have to be 18 and above to watch it, but as long as you have an account, it's fine. LOL. xD They look good in suits, don't they? :D

They made their comeback today on M!Countdown too ~ They performed both Before Yesterday & Shut Up! :D (Click here to watch)

SPAZZ.

2010-10-04T08:13:00.003+08:00

AHH. OMG. OMG. OMG. I AM IN HEAVEN.

Ok I'm in school now. Last night, I listened to U-Kiss one-minute song teasers, and went to heaven. This morning, I saw the music video teaser, which had been delayed twice. I was mad but crap, it's worth the wait! Half of them went topless omg. +_+ The album was released also! Then Kevin and Xander tweeted!!

And Xander is like damn sweet. He apologized for the delay and told us to sleep first if we have to wake up early. Damn sweet laaaa. Okay wait, I shall take a risk and post the video here. xD

I was completely incoherent yesterday. Speechless. Beyond words. And I feel as if I've found the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. WOOOOHOOOOO!!!! :D

-edit-

DAMMIT I JUST SAW IT AGAIN AND PAUSED WHEN IT WAS KEVIN ON-SCREEN. THAT BOY HAS ABS. WHAT THE HELL. OMG. HOTHOT. HE'S BEEN WORKING OUT. HE'S NOT GIRL ANYMORE. OMG THIS CALLS FOR LETTER SPAM.

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COMPLETELY INCOHERENT.

Guilty

2010-09-29T18:43:00.009+08:00

I am proven guilty for not posting for 20 days.

Anyway. I'm only back because CERTAIN PEOPLE are still reading. Heh. :P ♥

I just switched off the TV. I didn't want to watch Dream Team anymore. Eli was eliminated and I didn't want to see his disappointed face. It happened last week too. ):

I wanted to blog a really long post about someone who I hate and several other people. But seeing how this is a public blog, I can't really do that. I can't mention names. So I shall do it over at my private blog, and only some special people know the link. ♥ I wonder if they even remember. LOL.

School's been really stressful. Exams are 8 days away. I don't know how I can still blog. Miracle. I'm gonna eat dinner after this, then study my ass off for Science. Good thing is, we don't have school on Friday. Why? Dunman got the School Excellence Award and Ms Chong wanted to celebrate by giving us a day off, and on Childrens' Day. Hohoho. 4-day week for us~! I can make full use of Thursday night & Friday. Oh, and the weekend. Hehe. :)

Anyway spazzzzzz. Kevin's hair is black = signs of comeback nearing + album cover and tracklist revealed = U-KISS IS OFFICIALLY BACK BABY!!! ♥♥♥

The title of the mini-album no.4 is Break Time! The album will most likely be released on 4th October & I can't believe they still haven't released Mworago's 3D MV! Steffi told me about it around 9am+ and I couldn't stop thinking about it since then! ANDAND it comes with a 50-page photobook! 50 pages of nothing but U-Kiss photos?! *nosebleed* LALALA~~ Cherlyn's gonna help me pre-order! All are new songs omg. Shut Up [siggeureo] (most likely title song), Light It Up (most likely follow-up song), Avatar, Rock Ya Body & Before Yesterday ++ Shut Up & Light It Up instrumental! OMGGGGGGGG. I'M SO HIGH NOW.

KEKEKEKE U-KISS DAEBAK! U-KISS JJANG! WOOOHOOOOOOO~!

I shall end off with a photo of U-Kiss! ♥

Alexander, Eli, Soohyun, Kevin, Kiseop, Kibum & Dongho~!

Gidarilkeyo~!

Comeback, ppali~! :D ♥♥

PS. I won't be blogging for quite a while. Follow me on Twitter for bite-sized updates! :D

fantabulous

2010-09-09T00:40:00.003+08:00

Annyeong yeoreobun~

I had a blast on my birthday. Hence, this post will be solely on 7 SEPTEMBER 2010. :D

In the morning, for our pre-dawn meal, my mum bought McDonalds breakfast for all of us! Yayness! I went back to my primary school to help motivate the P6 kids, who are having their PSLE in 29 days' time. But some of them, are really hopeless. You can see in their eyes that they don't care about it at all! What is happening to them nowadays? I remember when we were P6, we took our studies very seriously. Mdm Noor doesn't know what to do with them now too. Sad cases. I can only wish them the best? :x

At night, Loraine, Ellice, Zhuojing & ShaoYu came over! They bought me brownies and KFC! Andand! A U-KISS CLOCK. Awesome. I have U-Kiss as a clock now. I loike xD ♥ They spent like 2 hours with me, because they couldn't go home so late. I saw it coming, but I was really touched. Thankyou. ♥

I received presents!

- Hangeng's album 'Geng Xin' from Natasha.

- Necklace from Mummy!

- U-Kiss clock from Loraine, Ellice, Shaoyu & Zhuojing.

- iPod Nano from Abang.

- Galaxy S from family! (coming soon)

- Bag from Aju! (coming soon)

Hehe, I really enjoyed myself on this day! Thankyou to everyone who wrote on my Facebook wall, there's like 100+ of you so I can't singly name you out, but you know who you are, and thankyou! Those who texted, tweeted me too! :) ♥

I would be happier if this guy up here celebrated it with me. But dreams will remain dreams. :\

who are you?

2010-08-26T20:02:00.004+08:00

Angry, angry.

Who the hell do you think you are? Some big boss who do everything? Someone we're scared of? Someone we look up to? HAH, hell no! You're just some idiot who thinks the world will stop for you. FYI, not only you can show attitude. I can too, and too bad for you, I'm going to be showing you attitude from now on. You obviously have not seen me when I'm angry, or showing attitude right? Well, I'm doing it just for you. Be honored! I rarely do it.

One thing I hate the most about you : you judge people by their looks. If they are pretty, you suck up to them. When they're not, you insult them like crazy. Just who the hell do you think you are to do all these? You think you very handsome? HAHA no. Please hor, you're not handsome, no one likes you because of your suckish attitude. You're no big boss. Snap out of it, it's annoying.

I just asked you a question. I don't know if it sounded like I'm insulting you or not, but I certainly didn't intend to. How did you react? "Fuck you la!" In the Science lab. Well, you must be happy because K is on your side. No problem with me, I've got my other friends. Everyone at our table is angry with you, because you reacted in such a way just because of a question. And because you've been treating me like shit when I treated you like a friend. Well, don't expect me to be nice to you anymore, you don't deserve it at all. You asked for silent treatment, you asked for attitude from me. Now, you've got it.

OKAY end of rant! Study Science & Literature now, byebye~

My Kevin is incredibly hot & sexy. :P

PS. I need more Kevin pictures. :x

Shopping

2010-08-22T23:14:00.005+08:00

I WENT SHOPPING @ BUGIS TODAY. ;D

I bought...

- Wallet
- Some keychain (if buy get discount on wallet xD)
- Everlast slippers
- Change of Heart (Jodi Picoult)
- Keeping Faith (Jodi Picoult)

I am happy. Mum won't be though, because all the stuff cost me more than $90. x_x

We broke fast at Dadi's place~ A lot of food! Beef, chicken, macaroni, potatoes, fruit cocktails, chocolate cupcakes, ice-cream. Happyhappy girl. :>

I'm totally.. uhh.. "captivated" by the Samsung Galaxy S. I don't want an iPod Touch anymore, because the Galaxy is just like an iPhone, only cooler. :P Got free apps, I can download Hangul keyboard for free, omg. xD Have memopad, eBooks, games, Twitter, blahblah. Just like an iPhone. HOHOHO. Gonna wait until my plan finishes, then get a data plan then buy a Galaxy. Of course, Mum's gonna pay. My Raya money is going to go to SS3 + future U-Kiss stuff. HEHEHE.

I'm beginning to like 2SHIN couple! Dongho + Soohyun. Like so cute, hehe. Just read one fic (click here to read). It's WOW. I cannot wait for the next chapter, huhu.

Andwae, lalala, dambaeyeongi, no,
Sesangul garineun dambaeyeongi, no
Andwae, lalala, soricheobwa, yeah
Dambae kkunkettdago soricheobwa, yeah
Cheot bonjaeneun gwirowon ganjeobhibyeon
Du beonjae shimhagae naneun ibnaemsae
Sae beonjaeneun paega neomu apa
Nae beonjae somswigiga neomu himdureo
Andwae, lalala, dambaeyeongi, no
Sesangul garineun dambaeyeongi, no
Andwae, lalala, soricheobwa, yeah
Dambae kkunkettdago soricheobwa, yeah
Andwae, lalala, dambaeyeongi, no
Sesangul garineun dambaeyeongi, no
Andwae, lalala, soricheobwa, yeah
Dambae kkunkettdago soricheobwa, yeah

PS. I typed out the romanized lyrics myself, following the Hangul lyrics provided on-screen. Sorry for any mistakes. ^^v

I Love U-Kiss' smoke-free song. So cute. :> Neomu kyeopta~ xD

sometimes

2010-08-21T12:10:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it all comes to a point where it's too much to bear.

New Blogskin~ ♥

2010-08-21T02:41:00.005+08:00

Nice new blogskin righttttttttt. HEHE. ♥
Time check : 2.42am.

I've completed my revision for History. Did you know that the common tests are starting on Wednesday and I've only started revising?! You will have no idea how much I panicked. Doesn't mean I sleep in class, I don't care about my grades or studies okay! >:(

I missed a lot of programmes this week. Star Golden Bell, Dream Team and Music Bank. The 3 important ones! I didn't watch Star Golden Bell because I went for the YOG Badminton (which was good, btw). I didn't watch Dream Team & Music Bank because I fell asleep. I don't think I'm THAT tired, but oh well.

Being a leader for the N.EMation thing is... stressful sometimes. It's like, I'm responsible for everything. Contacting the members, expected to talk alot, present, represent the group, etc. I don't think I'm ready, but I don't think Khairul's any more ready than me, hur. xD He's a slacker. ~.~

It's 2.46am and I'm still wide awake. Blame the chocolate milk I drank while studying. Hmm, maybe I should just stay up and write my chapters until Sahur, hurhurhur. Okay. I shall do that.

I wonder if U-Kiss is sleeping, or recording their new songs. Wonder wonder wonder.. I care about their health alot. Once, Xander tweeted at 7am KST and said they just finished recording. Like, what? He could still joke about being a vampire for sleeping in the morning. -_-

CN Blue's in Singapore now. Uyen's going to their concert. Hope she haves fun. :D Uyen, take a lot of pictures okay, but remember to turn the camera on. *inside joke* xD

Sometimes I feel like I'm really blessed in life, and sometimes I feel that life's a bitch. Oh well~ There's nothing I can do about it, is there? :)

cr. ukissmeSG

Because I just love him like that, aegyo or not. ♥

Time check : 2.52am.

Let's write stories. :D

ISPB, wait for meeeee~ (: